It's possible you're thinking of a different word, or perhaps it's a neologism (a newly invented word).
To help me understand what you meant, could you provide more context?
For example:
* Where did you encounter this word? (e.g., in a book, online, in a conversation)
* What was the sentence or context surrounding the word?
* What do you think the word might mean?
With more information, I can help you figure out the intended meaning or find a suitable alternative.