Here are a few ways to express this sentiment in English, depending on the context:
Literal translations:
* I don't want to see myself.
* I don't want to look at my own reflection.
More idiomatic expressions:
* I don't want to face myself.
* I don't want to confront my own reality.
* I'm afraid of what I might see.
* I'm trying to avoid self-reflection.
More specific expressions:
* I'm trying to forget about my past mistakes.
* I'm trying to ignore my flaws.
* I'm trying to escape from my own problems.
* I'm trying to pretend everything is okay.
The best way to translate the idiom depends on the specific context and what you are trying to communicate.